Underneath the lights and sirens beats the heart of a healer! The author rode the first wave of Mobile Intensive Care Unit Paramedics in the U.S. in the 1970's. He became a reflection of allopathic medicine's shift from hands-on patient "care" into a litigation-driven, technologically-oriented "delivery system". Like many of his peers, he morphed into a competent "Flesh Mechanic". Somewhere along the line he lost his soul. In an at times painfully honest memoir, the author describes moments at the mid-point of his career that rocked him to his very core. Through sometimes harrowing, sometimes transcendental experience, his defenses were chipped away; forcing him to come to grips with the human being he had become and could no longer continue to be. By facing his demons, however, he came to better understand his place in humankind's battle against death; now, he found himself lending a hand in the struggles of Life. This book is for you or anyone you love who is challenged by issues of emotional, philosophic, moral, psychic or spiritual natures while serving human beings in distress. Its purpose is to get medics of all stripes talking about their personal challenges as if they mattered!